A straight man’s reaction to the movie “I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry”

(10:12:51 PM) Mlah: i had to stop the movie and look at some porno

It’s nice to be back home. I get to chill and do nothing in my own house again. Although, I find myself missing two things about school.

1) My bed. For some reason, my really nice mattress here at home just isn’t as comfortable as my mattress at school. It’s like sleeping on a rock. I guess I need a less firm mattress, so I switched my mattress with the 18 year old one in the guest room. It’s a compromise since I can feel the springs when I lay down in it. But at least now I can sleep through the night.

2) Waking up and people being around to talk to. I miss my dirty south! I’ll explain “Dirty South” in a post later, for now just accept it. But yeah, I miss waking up and having people to hang out with.

Two things Things I don’t miss:

1) class

2) my roommate

But it’s nice to sit on my couch again, and play with Piggy, our albino hairless guinea pig. God it’s ugly. I’ll post a picture later. Right now I’m watching my little brother play God of War — freaking awesome game — and hanging out before I have to go to work. Figures, I’m home three days, and I’m already taking shifts at work. But I can definitely use the money, I’ve already spent at least $200 since I’ve been home. But I totally got some cute clothes, and a nice shirt for my boy.

Oh, the boy and I, we’re doing much better now, for which I am sooo glad. We had a talk, and things are better. I appreciate everyone’s advice! I took a lot of it into consideration when dealing with the issues.

I also had my knee appointment, and I can do everything without my brace now! woohoo! It’s been a year since surgery, dang.

Another thing that’s been a year — My relationship with my  boyfriend!! December 10th was one year. Since I wasn’t home then, we are waiting till our Ski trip to Quebec to celebrate. I’m really excited!

Otherwise, I’m just waiting for my grades to come out, enjoying my time at home, and enjoying having absolutely nothing to worry about. ahhh this is the life.

Megan: woooooo im so high i could eaet a starrrr lalalaa

God I love this girl.

Sorry I haven’t been around. Finals week. So far I was viciously raped by my pysch test, and I made spanish my bitch. Coming up tomorrow at 7:30AM is Intro to Fiction, then at 12:30pm Visual Rhetoric. I’m not pleased.

On that glorious day of mass sales and huge crowds of insane shoppers, yes I do mean Black Friday, I went out with my father to the mall to look for some things. The one thing I really wanted? Ugg Boots.

In my defense, I know they are very expensive and wanted a cheap knock off brand of them. But my father tends to get a little spend happy during the holiday and decided that he would get me the good ones. I mean, you pay that much for quality……right? I wasn’t arguing.

Well, we went to every story that sold shoes in the mall. Only two sold Uggs, but what didn’t they sell? Caramel Uggs, classic tall, size 8.

So we left the mall without buying anything.

Yet, the search continues. My father searched all over online, even called the Uggs store in Australia. They didn’t even have the ones I wanted.

So apparently I’m not the only one that is riding the coat tails of an old fad.

The hunt continues…..

So I’m sitting in my dorm room, on my bed, in the dark since my roommate is asleep. It’s 2:26am. I just got back from partying. I’m sober now, since I had to walk a few people back. There is a reason my friends call me “Sensible.”

But as much as I should be going to sleep since I have to be conscious at 2pm tomorrow for group project, I’m really stuck.

I think I may actually be depressed, or maybe it’s just normal to wish your boyfriend would call all day, then when he does, you aren’t happy at all and proceed to cry intensely while you dry your hair. I had to call my mom and talk to her, I felt so miserable. And then just cried on the phone to her too.

Most people would say I’m just stressed about finals. Nope, even though they are the week after next, I’m not worried at all.

I’m not sure why I’m so upset and depressed. All week I’ve felt distant from my boyfriend, maybe that’s it? I’ve hardly felt like I even have a boyfriend these past few days. I’m starting to wonder if it’s worth still being with him.

It’s so good when we’re together, and it’s good when we are apart if we talk. But we haven’t talked and I feel like such an afterthought to him sometimes.

The biggest problem with that? It’s exactly how my last boyfriend used to treat me, and I can’t bear to be treated like that again.

I wish my boyfriend would text me, or call me, or even talk online with me about something other than pointless youtube videos.

Is it wrong to just want to be reassured every now and then? It’s not like this is a new thing. I’m needy, I know it, he knows it. It’s pretty well known.

Maybe because it’s been a year he is just settled in and secure. I’d be okay if he told me that, I’d feel better. Mostly because he would have told me something.

It’s amazing how when you don’t talk to someone for about 2-3 days, you miss them like hell, and start to worry.

I suppose I should head to bed, stop complaining, and hope he talks to me tomorrow.

ps. even when I sounded miserable on the phone, does he ask if something is wrong? No, he has to make sure he gets to his party and sees everyone. That’s exactly what Blake would have done, and that scares me.